Thursday, December 31, 2020

Thursday - COVID292 - Happy New Year

I've been getting up earlier which makes for an easier start (and earlier stop) to the work day.  It also means I get tired earlier, which I guess is all a good thing.

I spent a good chunk of the morning once the sun came up fixing the fence that Salsa took apart yesterday.  They lost some space and I lost the ability to hook the netting up to the battery, so there's no electric deterrent until the new fencing arrives next week.  Good news is that they shipped it out same day - I was thinking they wouldn't get it out until Monday.  

Late afternoon, Bex and I headed down to bring her car to Cory so he could take a look at it and replace some spark plugs.  We're still trying to figure out what's wrong.  We went to the feed store for curbside pickup while we were in town and picked up nacho fries from Taco Bell as a snack because we couldn't resist once we heard they were back.  

It was a quiet night with pizza for dinner and some hot buttered rum as a soothing and tasty new adult beverage.  I was going to wait for midnight but am too pooped.  2021 will get here when it does, and it'll do what it does.  I'm moving into the new year with good intentions.  We'll see how those pan out.

We are staying safe and well.  I hope you are too and that 2021 brings only good things to you and those you love.

Wednesday, December 30, 2020

Wednesday - COVID291

When I opened the door to the barn this morning, Mooney, Luna's brother, looked intently out the door.  He typically just starts moseying to it and outside.  Salsa was more laid back.  But then again, she wasn't born with Luna and had not spent every moment of her life with her.

I watched Moonshine while we walked to the pen, his head darting here and there, looking, and then occasionally looking behind him where Luna has typically lagged recently.  When he got to the top of the steps before entering the pen, he looked back again, then walked into the pen, stopped, and scanned the entire inside border, looking back and outside again.  I told him I wished I could explain and I wished I could let him know that I'm missing her and looking for her too.  Until I remember that she's gone.  But he doesn't know.  It breaks my heart all over again.

It was a very busy work day but I got a break when Tamily came by for a visit outside in the barely warm sunshine.  We exchanged gifts and I love love love their handmade gifts.  They are both so creative and talented.  The greatest gift of all was being able to see them and to hang out with the goats for a bit and laugh at Salsa using Tammy as a scratching post.

I finished up working after they left and got a phone call late in the day that Luna's ashes were ready for pick-up.  When we went outside to bring the goats to the barn, I was surprised to see Moonshine had escaped.  And then when I got closer to the pen, saw a good sized section torn down and Salsa tangled in the middle of it, her head through a section of the fencing.  We untangled her and got the goats to the barn, commenting as we went that these two are the biggest troublemakers we have ever had, and now it's just the two of them to create mayhem.  I have a fence to repair in the morning and hope it's not raining too much when I need to do that.  The forecast is for a significant amount over 10 days and I'm not happy about that at all.

Bex and I headed out to get Luna's ashes, stopping at the hardware store for some foam sealant to make sure no more water leaks into the repaired (and later other) section under the house.  We hit rain and dark and navigated our way to pick up Luna.  We picked up dinner to go on the way home as well and made it home safely.

I fell asleep on the couch again.  I'm thinking I need to just head to bed earlier.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Tuesday, December 29, 2020

Monday and Tuesday - COVID289 and 290

Monday night I fell asleep on the couch and was too groggy to write when I got up.  It was a work day normal day except that I discovered an issue under the house. A wet board had separated from the house holding a breaker box. I notified landlady and she came down to take a look.  I'd propped it up with a 2x4 and she made arrangements for the handyman to come by the next day.

That night I noticed that Luna was limping pretty badly.  She's had a slight limp for a while but typically the goats shake it off.  But she's been struggling to eat for a while and this time what she did to her leg wasn't getting shaken off.  I decided if she was no better in the morning to make a trip to the vet.

So that's what I did this morning because she was not any better, and in fact was worse.  She was shivering in the barn and it took her a long time to walk to the pen, encouraged by treats of oak leaves.  I made arrangements to bring her down to the large animal vet in Cotati this morning.  Bex and I had a hard time getting her into the car.  We couldn't lift her without hurting her, and so we created a makeshift ramp and helped ease her up it into the back of the Equinox.  I had contemplated the trailer but did not want to put her in there alone and in pain, preferring to have her near me.  She laid down in the back after a while but then got up again, seeming to prefer standing, no matter how difficult.  At one point she talked to me for a while and then started pawing at the tarp beneath her.

I checked in at the office and then backed up to the barn.  The vet examined her in the back of the Equinox and was surprised at how old she was - 12 coming up in February.  We discussed what was going on with her and the obvious fact she was in pain, not only from the injury but from the difficulties she was having with eating and the bloat that keeps coming back.  He said there was really nothing he could do to make her comfortable or healthy again.  I trimmed her beard to save and was near her when she passed, which was quick.  

As I was trimming Luna's beard and the vet prepared the injection, he asked if I would take her with me or if I wanted them to take care of her.  I asked if they cremated and he said no.  I was surprised and wondered if my vet in Windsor would take her for cremation and he said he didn't know.  He asked one of the gals in the office to give me phone numbers of people I could contact.  After Luna was gone, I stroked her neck again before gently closing the tailgate and moving the car away from the barn.  I tearfully talked to Tammy and she called my vet in Windsor while I called the closest location in Sebastopol.  We compared notes.  Windsor would do it but had no room to take her; Sebastopol could do it.  The only other options were to wait for another company to pick her up or to drive her to Napa, so Sebastopol it was.

I cried my way to the pet cemetery and to the people who would take Luna from me for cremation.  They were quirky but kind and I felt like she was in good hands.  I expect to be able to pick up her ashes tomorrow.  

Luna's registered name is Tranquilium, as in the Sea of on the moon.  She was always the tranquil, gentle one, standing in the back and not as pushy for attention.  She loved blackberry leaves and oak leaves and to nibble the acorns that fell on the ground in late summer.  She loved scratches and treats.  I'll miss her.

All I wanted to do was to go back to Cotati and have a socially distanced cry and cup of tea or coffee with Tamily but I needed to get back in the house in time for the repairs.  I was able to talk with Tammy and with Mandi and Bex on the drive home and get a big long hug from Bex.

I worked as best I could while the repairs were being done and our handyman did a good job securing the breaker box and covering the area.  I'll seal it to prevent rain from getting in again.

Jess and Cory came up in the evening to look at Bex's car.  The same issue is happening that was supposedly corrected by the mechanic she took it to earlier this year.  Cory got it started and thinks he knows what the problem is and how to fix it.  We're hoping it will be an easy fix by him.  If not, we are exploring other mechanics.  The one we took it to seems to be good for oil changes and fixing what is clear needs fixing, such as brakes, and what the computer tells him is wrong, but doesn't have the ability to suss out a problem when the check engine light isn't coming on.  The car isn't throwing codes, just symptoms.

I fell asleep on the couch again early but was able to wake up enough to write out the day's events.  It's been a rough one.  I'm hoping for a good night's sleep.

We're a little ragged today but safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Monday, December 28, 2020

Saturday and Sunday - COVID287 and 288

I was surprised to see that I hadn't updated this last night, though there was not much to talk about.  I spent the day relaxing and resting and doing a little work yesterday.

Today was focused on transcription work and doing some things around the house.  I got a couple projects done and fixed the vacuum.

I've enjoyed the days off the regular job, and that tomorrow is Monday again surprised me.  I'm hoping for a good day and looking forward to a shortened week.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Friday, December 25, 2020

Friday - Christmas Day COVID286

I slept a little later but not much.  Bex had told me she'd be up early and I said she could wake me, but as has been the tradition with all my kids - I was up and ready to go while they slept longer.  I remember waking my parents in the wee hours, but my kids have been different.

I enjoyed some coffee and got the animals out before the rain.  

We Zoomed with the kids again this morning and Bex and I exchanged our gifts.  We took it easy the rest of the day, and she ran out to grab some Japanese food for a late lunch/early dinner.  I watched Christmas movies and crocheted while it rained.  The goats were happy to get back into the barn and the chickens roosted early.

It's been a quiet and relaxing day, which is what I needed.  Except for the rain of course, which I still hate even though I wished for some of it to stop the fires and end fire season.  

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.  Merry Christmas.

Thursday, December 24, 2020

Thursday - Christmas Eve COVID285

I woke up with the alarm and was glad I had because Mandi called not long after I got up to share her joy about discovering the patterns in the paper snowflakes I'd made for her and the kids.  We had a good chat and then I started my work day.

I took off just before noon to bring gifts to Mom and Dad in Novato with Bex.  We had a good visit and seem to have this distance thing down pat.  We visited through a window using cell phones to communicate and were able to enjoy Mom and Dad opening the gifts we brought for them.  I picked some Meyer lemons before we left with a bag of delicious home baked muffins.

We stopped by Tammy's to drop off a lap blanket from Mom for Tammy's neighbor whose heater went out.  It is cold this week!

Then to Jessi's to drop off some gifts and then home.

I did a little work while Bex ran off to pick up something and by the time she got back, we were starting our Zoom call gift exchange.  We had a great time sharing the gifts we'd made and picked for each other.  Then Bex and I started bucatini for our dinner.

I kept dozing off in front of the TV so it's time for bed.  

Merry Christmas to you all.  We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Wednesday, December 23, 2020

Wednesday - COVID284

I took part of the day off work to tend to some things and run errands.  I got to see my girls and grands for a little bit and talk with my mom.

I've been a bit stressed about a health issue and part of today's activities were some tests that showed that I am fine and am cancer free.  That was good news and welcome relief.

Bex and I wrapped up gifts this evening and are working out a plan for a Christmas Eve and Christmas different from any other.

We are safe and very well.  I hope you are too. 

Tuesday - COVID283

It was a workday but my assistant is back in the office so that helped.  

I was able to finish up some gifts and get everything wrapped.  I'll be exchanging gifts with the girls tomorrow so they are all in the right places and we are planning a Zoom holiday.  It was nice to have the tree complete.

We are staying safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Monday, December 21, 2020

Monday - COVID282

I was up after the alarm but not too much longer after.  My phone vibrated itself off of the nightstand onto the floor and became untethered from the charger.

When I took Bella out late this morning, I heard the cry of a hawk and stopped to look up.  I watched it circle for a few seconds before realizing that I had what could be lunch at the other end of the leash.  Bella had come to stand next to my leg, so she was safe and she stayed with me on our way back into the house.

It was a work day that I was wishing wasn't because I need to get some wrapping done and finish some gifts.  I'm hoping tomorrow will be a little easier because I was pretty wiped at the end of the day.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Sunday, December 20, 2020

Sunday - COVID281

I slept until Mandi called me, and that is always a good way to wake up.

It was a quiet day.  I went out in the afternoon to pick up some craft items curbside and groceries from Jess.  I was able to visit a bit and exchange some items and deliver a gift as well.

Chinese food for dinner tonight and continuing to work on projects.  It looks as if we will be Zooming Christmas and hoping for a holiday dinner together in the new year.  So I need to begin finishing up some gifts and wrapping early this week.

Happy birthday to my Mama.  I miss her and hope to see her soon.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Saturday, December 19, 2020

Saturday - COVID280

 I did not get as much done today as I wanted to but need to remember that rest is something that I need to "do."  I was able to make some progress on some projects and order some groceries online.  I'll head out tomorrow to pick those up.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Friday - COVID279

I only snoozed the alarm a little bit this morning.  It felt good to be able to get a little more sleep, though I kept waking up to nightmares.

It was a very busy yet productive work day with lots of times on the phone solving problems.

Bex and I put the tree up this evening and it feels good to have it glowing in the living room.  Oliver even sat on my lap afterward, something he hasn't done for months.

It's a cold, cold night and I'm looking forward to snuggling up in a warm bed tonight and looking forward to the weekend.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too!

Thursday, December 17, 2020

Thursday - COVID278

I got up with the alarm this morning and got tired early tonight.  

It was a busy work day with some calls to make tomorrow that I didn't get done today.

I took a break in the middle of the day to pick up feed and groceries curbside.  I'm not sure what's up with a run on pasta at Safeway lately but there were some missed items that we'll have to try for another time.  It is feeling a little bit like March again and I'm not sure why.

I received an awesome gift in the mail today that I am looking forward to listening to.

I tried to crochet tonight but am too sleepy so will get to bed a little earlier than I have been lately.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Wednesday - COVID277

It was a Wednesday workday rainy day.  I am back to hating rain again.  It is stressful and all I want is peace and comfort and security and calm.

Bex picked up tamales when she was out today and we had that for dinner.  Not as good as what we've gotten at the farmers market or the ones I made earlier this year.  I resolved to make more and freeze them up so we can have good ones again.

I kept dozing off on the couch this evening so it is definitely after bedtime.  I'm hoping for a sunny and productive day tomorrow.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Tuesday, December 15, 2020

Tuesday - COVID276

I slept in again and think maybe I need the rest.

It was a work day without much to report other than taking the time to work on projects again when I can.

I had roadside assistance come up to change a tire on Loretta so we can get the flat repaired - it just sank to the ground.

My stress level tonight increased notch by notch and I'm not sure why.  I am hoping that meditation and sleep will help and tomorrow will be easier.  

But we are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Monday - COVID275

It was a late start to a work day but not too bad.  

It was a busy work day but I had a hard time focusing.  Bex and I worked on our own holiday projects and are making slow but steady progress and enjoying the process.

I've been eating soup until it's gone for lunch and dinner and think that tomorrow will be the last day so I'll need to cook dinner.  I have my next soup planned.  I never got the cornbread made but that's okay - it'll be there when I want it.

The fox showed up last night for a brief appearance near the Ring camera.  I don't know what it was looking at or doing at one point when it went underneath the camera and stood still for at least two minutes.  All that could be seen was its back.  Other than that, the camera has been quiet with just one or two visits from the opossum. 

We are safe and well and hibernating.  I hope you are too.

Sunday, December 13, 2020

Sunday - COVID274

I slept until Mandi called, which was a good wake-up.  It's always good to catch up with her.

It was a rainy day which is a stressor for me.  I stayed busy with some work and projects but did not get the tree up today.  It's nice to see the projects coming together and I'm looking forward to sending them off as Christmas gifts and hope they're ready in time to ship.  It's strange to think about not being able to be together for the holiday in person.

I napped on the couch for a little bit and it's time to go to bed.  We are safe and dry and well.  I hope you are too.

Saturday - COVID273

It was a later wake-up this morning which felt good, though I did squander it a bit with late bedtime tonight.

It was a day of tasks around the house, preparing space for the Christmas tree, and getting lost in projects to the point that I lost track of time.

Bex and I took a trip to pick up groceries curbside at Jessi's and one stop at a small store with no one but a cashier inside for a quick pick-up.  We were surprised at all the people strolling about downtown and the stores open that we thought would be closed.  It was quite disappointing because the more people ignore safety, the longer we will have to deal with this.  

We are safe and well and looking forward to another day off.  I hope you are too.

Friday, December 11, 2020

Friday - COVID272

I slept better again and hope this keeps up.

Work was work and fairly productive, though I felt pretty scattered much of the day.

Rain is good and yet it doesn't take long for the appeal and relief to wear off.  It makes me tense and cold and damp and is not a positive experience like it is for some friends and family.  I made soup that was delayed when the crock pot got unplugged.  The soup tasted good but it was late and I decided to make cornbread tomorrow for leftovers.

I'm pretty tired and hoping for good rest tonight.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Thursday, December 10, 2020

Thursday - COVID271

Sleeping earlier helps with the mornings.  Though they're still a bit cold and I want to stay warm under the covers longer.

It was a work day without much to talk about.

I heard from an old friend today about collaborating on a song.  I'm rusty but we'll see how it goes and how I can help.

Sonoma County and the Bay Area is going back to early COVID restrictions beginning Saturday through January 9.  This is hard for me to take.  No gatherings.  No unnecessary travel.  I'm sunk in a bit of a pit tonight.  I'll feel it and then figure out a plan.

We are safe and well and intend to stay that way.  I hope you are too.


Wednesday, December 9, 2020

Wednesday - COVID270

I am getting up earlier, which is a good thing for me and not so good for Oliver.  That means it's still dark out when I get up and he has to stay inside, moping at the door, until it's light enough for him to be safe outside.

It was a work day.  Things moved along at a good clip but not too overwhelming.  There is still so much to do and it's pretty difficult to complete some tasks remotely.  But we keep figuring it out.

I had a good talk with my boss at the end of the day.  For all of the challenges in this job, that relationship is a good one.  We are missing our legal assistant who is on vacation until the 22nd but have a routine that works well.

I had leftover curry for lunch and dinner and it's gone now so I'll figure something else out for tomorrow.  

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Tuesday - COVID269

Up on time with more sleep last night, though I am slipping a little tonight.

It was work work work today but things are getting done.  I felt like it was Friday at one point and was sad to realize I'm so early in the work week. That's a change from the way days have been slipping past.

Things that make me smile - I heard music coming from Bex's room this afternoon and it was music I recognized ... one of my favorites by England Dan and John Ford Coley.  And she's singing along.  That sparked joy.  I love how she has such a wide-ranging love of music, even greater than mine.

I'm still working on holiday projects in the evenings and too late into the night.  They take a lot of time but are worth it.  I made curry and rice for dinner, filling and warm. 

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Monday, December 7, 2020

Monday - COVID268

It felt good to get a little more sleep last night but it was still just a work day.  Halfway through I wondered if it was close to Friday yet, and was disappointed and shocked to realize it's Monday.

I got to talk with Tam on my way to the feed store to pick up curbside.

Not much else noteworthy for this Monday and I'm going to try to get to bed a little earlier again.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Sunday, December 6, 2020

Sunday - COVID267

I got up with the alarm on a Sunday - meh.  Got my act together, chores done, then hooked up the trailer to go pick up the fridge.  That was a 2.5 hour adventure.  My first time driving it was out back country roads through Forestville to Covey and Pleasant Valley Road in Sebastopol, then off on a private one-way dirt drive to a narrow dirt driveway through a ranch property to get the fridge loaded.  It took us a bit to back the trailer up in the narrow area and load the fridge up, then I was off again.  The second leg was a bit more comfortable for me, and I took my time and actually backed the trailer in to the house.  Not all the way because I don't want to hit cars but I did it!  The first thing I did at the house was run in to pee of course.  Then Jess called apologetic because she hadn't seen my text from a few days ago asking about borrowing their truck.  The timing was perfect because I could let her know that I didn't take the easy way out and took my courage in both hands and drove the trailer for the first time to pick up the fridge.

I was pretty proud of myself for backing it in.


Bex helped me to unload the fridge... 


...and get it set up in the house.


Then we pushed the trailer into its parking space because I didn't want to try to back up next to her car and potentially bump it.  

The fridge is small for the space but actually works well.  It doesn't stick out into the kitchen like the old one did and is fine for keeping the things we use the most inside the kitchen and the other fridge can be used for less important things.  It would be a dairy and booze fridge if I had a milking doe.

One interesting thing is that the guy I bought the fridge from is the same man who picked up Bug from us 10 years ago, and Bug gave him a lot of goat kids on that ranch.  I'll never forget that he loaded Bug into an SUV.  I would never have done that - it was hard enough having him in the back of our pickup under a camper shell when we brought him home from Lake County.

I spent the rest of the day with small projects, some work, and working on holiday gifts.  These are intricate and slow going and my hands need a break from time to time.

We are safe and well, though dreading another red flag warning way too late in the year.  I hope you are safe and well.

Saturday - COVID266

I slept in a bit today but not too long.  I took the day to relax and do a couple things around the house. I started on a work project before going out for a while.

Bex and I went to Cotati to "shop and stroll" outdoors and were able to take a look at some things and stay socially distant.  We found a couple of cute things, including a fairy wand from Tamily's booth that I've had my eye on for a while.  We are looking forward to planting that in the garden and watch it shine.

We had a couple of other errands along the way, dropping off e-Waste and picking up items on the way home.

I stayed up later than I had planned because I'll be leaving in the morning driving the trailer for the first time to pick up a new/used fridge. Wish me luck.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too. 

Friday, December 4, 2020

Friday - COVID265

I got up on time and got an early start with work.  There was a lot to do today.

I made arrangements to pick up the new/old refrigerator this weekend.  I am going to drive the trailer for the first time to pick it up.  It will fit easily into the space and once the old one was out, I realize it was far too big for the space.  Having something smaller will be nice - no portion of the fridge with handles poking out and into the cramped kitchen.

I was able to take some time to organize and put away some of the evacuation debris that has been crowding my bedroom.  Things are getting back to normal a little, though the car is still half packed.

The TV went out last night and all my fixes didn't fix it.  If electronics are going to break, this is the time I suppose.  I found a good sale and went for a drive this afternoon to pick it up - curbside delivery into the back of the car.

I am still inexplicably angry.  Maybe that's my way out of the depression and feeling that if I'm going to keep getting kicked, I may as well lay down and just take it until maybe it stops. Getting the car and broken fridge out of here seems to have gotten me back in gear.

It'll be a full weekend so time to get some rest.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.


Thursday, December 3, 2020

Thursday - COVID264

I made myself get up when the alarm went off this morning because I had prep to do before the old Equinox was picked up.  I allowed myself some coffee while I set up my work day on the computer and then I went outside to play musical vehicles.

I hooked up the trailer and moved it up the driveway to make room for the old Equinox to get out.  I discovered there is a slight bend in the arm on the trailer that made it exceedingly difficult to back up properly, though I spent at least 15-20 minutes on that attempt.  It doesn't help that the driveway is narrow and oddly curved with bushes that need to be trimmed back.  I ended up getting the trailer close to where I wanted it, unhooking it, and manually pushing it into place.  

I then needed to jumpstart the car again.  I have no idea why it's doing this because the battery is relatively new - but it hasn't been started much at all since July.  I then moved it to the end of the driveway to make it easier to get out.

I then moved the trailer by hand to the side of the house, getting in a good workout.  Then the new car followed.  I didn't have to push that, thank goodness.

The car was gone by 11:00, after signing everything off and taking my check (which was the wrong amount but they'll mail me the balance) and watching it get loaded onto the flat bed and taken off.  It's always mixed feelings.  There are a lot of happy times and trips in that car and it served me well, but it became a big problem toward the end.  It did teach me a lot too, as each car tends to do.

I took a few minutes to start dough for rolls that I had with chili, which I started in the crock pot after the dough processed.  Not much room on counters for appliances, so they take turns.

I finished off work and dinner was good and will last us for a few days.

I dropped the leash this afternoon when I took Bella out.  Normally that wouldn't be a thing, right?  Leash drop, step on it, or just pick it up.  But this is a retractable leash.  And she ran like crazy because it chases her.  It took me such a long time to get her to just stop and sit so I could pick it up and get her inside.  Maybe she'll figure that out if it happens again.  I really try not to drop it - I've done it once before indoors - but it's probably inevitable that I'll do it again.  

I am tired early tonight, maybe the exercise pushing a trailer around this morning, maybe a rush of depression and anger that hit me tonight.  One thing I know for sure is that I need more sleep than I've been getting.

It was a good day.  We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Wednesday - COVID263

I way overslept this morning - to 9am.  And discovered I'm almost out of cat food and didn't remember to order more for curbside pickup until 4:30 p.m.  I crossed my fingers that I could pick up same day and wouldn't need to go to Safeway for a different cheap brand of food.

I worked, and I contacted a couple of people and the garbage company about getting rid of the defunct refrigerator.  I decided to pay a local man to haul it away, and Bex and Q helped me get it outside.  As we were rolling it through the kitchen, Bex suddenly stopped and stepped back and said that a zombie mouse had just dropped out of the fridge.  It turned out to be more mummy than zombie, and I disposed of it while the kids got the fridge to the door.  It took some time and finagling to get it out the door.  We got it down the stairs and then waited for Manuel to show up.  It was nice to get that out and plan for the new/old one coming next weekend and wash the floor under where it has resided all this time.

I was going to make crock pot chili but got a late start and the kids picked up sandwiches instead.  I'll start the chili earlier tomorrow.

The old Equinox is supposed to be picked up in the morning, so I need enough sleep so I am up on time.  I need to jump the battery again and hopefully get it to the street where it'll be easier to tow away.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Wednesday, December 2, 2020

Tuesday - COVID262

It was one of those days that I wished I could just stay in bed all day.  I'm  feeling pretty low but just keep moving until I feel better.

I was able to get some things done today while working.  

My plans for selling the old Equinox to the Kelly Blue Book people fell through when the damn battery died again and I realized that I do NOT want to drive it to Petaluma, no matter how much more they might give me than a dismantler.  I found that Pick N Pull gave the best price, 33% more than Cream's, and so I set that in motion for them to pick it up and bring me a check this week.

I finally got someone to look at the fridge and it is dead.  The parts needed to repair it are discontinued so there's no saving it.  I saw on FB that a friend is selling a fridge that I hope will work.

I had a chance to talk with Mom and Dad today, which always brightens my day.

The rest of the day was uneventful, just work and holiday projects.  

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Tuesday, December 1, 2020

Monday - COVID261

Sleeping is getting easier but I am still going to bed too late.  I'll work on that.

It was a workday Monday.  I postponed the Equinox inspection/potential sale to tomorrow because I thought I was going to need to take Luna to the vet.  But she was improved this morning.  This girl has been sliding like her mama did and I'm doing my best to take care of her and not make any of my previous mistakes.

When I went outside this morning, I smelled the strong smell of vegetation fire.  I know they are doing controlled burns these days so I stomped down my panic and looked it up.  Yes, a controlled burn nearby.  The adrenaline spike was no fun, though.

The appliance guy was scheduled for between 1 and 4pm today and didn't show.  No phone call either.  It took two days for them to return my call so perhaps they are super busy.  I'll follow up in the morning.

I am trying to finish holiday gifts and as always am worried about deadlines even though I started early.  I do like what I am working on.

It's a topsy turvy world.  But we are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Monday, November 30, 2020

Sunday - COVID260

I woke up a little late but not too much so.  I needed some alfalfa and goat feed, so called ahead after chores and headed down to Santa Rosa for curbside pickup.

On my way back, I received a text from my neighbor that she'd seen a coyote below her house and it was headed down the driveway toward my place.  I thanked her (thankful for talk-to-text) and called Bex to let her know so she could check on the goats.  We didn't see it and the goats were undisturbed.  Oliver wasn't happy that we kept him in for a while.

I worked on projects this afternoon.  

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Saturday, November 28, 2020

Saturday - COVID259

This was one of those days I had to keep checking to remember what day it was.  When my alarm didn't go off, I knew it was the weekend but couldn't remember which day.  One of they side effects of COVID and working at home, exacerbated by a holiday week.

I was low energy again but did get some things done around the house.  I'm working on making what I hope will be Christmas gifts if they work out okay.  I spent a lot of time expanding our family tree online and discovered that one of my maternal ancestors came over as a cooper on the Mayflower.  It was fascinating to read more about him and his wife and how they came to be together.  Apparently Longfellow wrote a poem about how my ancestor's friend asked him to propose to a woman for him, and she asked my ancestor how HE felt - so he proposed to her and she became my ancestor too.

It was an interesting realization for me and Bex and something that we talked about and researched quite a bit.  I'd been working on expanding her family tree when that came up and the bizarre realization that so close to a Thanksgiving holiday filled with mythology hiding the truth, she discovers she is descended from both sides.  A different indigenous nation and our Mayflower ancestor was not religious (it was a job) but still.

It's been a day and there's more to try to tackle tomorrow.  It feels like there's so much that needs to be done and a limited amount of time, energy, focus, and money.  But we'll get there.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Friday, November 27, 2020

Friday - COVID258

Today was a work day but I spent part of it with my girls, picking up some things from Jess's house she was keeping during the biggest part of the wildfire threat, and playing some Mille Bournes with the kids.  

My hip is bothering me more today.  I'm still trying to figure that out.

Bex made dinner and I was ready for bed earlier than I have been for a while.  There's things to do this weekend and I hope it's a productive couple of days, though all I want to do is rest and forget about stress.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Thursday - COVID257 and Thanksgiving

I got up on time today with plenty to do.  After coffee and chores, I started cooking and was in the kitchen for three hours finishing up pie and sweet potato casserole and yeast rolls and Bex made her corn casserole.  We shared dinner with the kids and grands, all contributing delicious food and good conversation.  We left stuffed with food and memories and love, though also an ache missing my parents.  What a weird year this has been.

We are staying safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Thursday, November 26, 2020

Wednesday - COVID256

I slept in a little but got up when I received a phone call this morning.  I've been pretty tired.

I worked on some Christmas gifts, some things around the house, and got a head start on cooking for Thanksgiving.  I will see the kids tomorrow but we have rolled back contact to March/April levels and will stay outside, distant, and masked.  Luckily, Jess has a good setup for staying outside.

I snoozed a few times on the couch while watching TV with Bex tonight.  She's working on some fun pet items that I hope she'll share some photos of.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Wednesday, November 25, 2020

Tuesday - COVID255

I slept well enough and got up okay.  The nights are colder and colder, and it's much more tempting to stay in bed until it warms up outside.

It was a work day, with work things, and nothing really noteworthy.

I did some work on selling the old Equinox.  I have one disappointing quote, no response from another yet, and an appointment to bring it for inspection and quote in the morning, though I am not thrilled about driving it.  I may go for the bird in hand that will tow the car than drive to Petaluma for an unknown.  I'll decide in the morning.

I made a new sweet bread recipe today but it turned out to be a disappointment.  We might try using it for French toast.

I'm hoping to stay off work tomorrow and focus on cooking and baking for the most part.  It's harder to do that when working from home.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Tuesday, November 24, 2020

Monday - COVID254

I'm sleeping better, though later, and my hip is still hurting more than usual.  I'm trying to figure out the next step and trying to take it easy.

I had some computer issues that gave me fits this morning.  Then I headed down to pick up some things from the office for the first time in months.  That included a care package from my boss with pesto, fig and ginger jam, lemon curd, and apple pie.  

I worked more in the afternoon and Bex made dinner using the pesto.  

I snoozed on the couch again and when I woke was too awake to go to bed right away, so another late night with nap.  The fox set off the Ring a couple times and appeared to be headed toward the front steps.  It left a pile on the back deck last night, so I had set up one of the cameras in that area tonight.  I regretted not setting one up on the front deck.  I think we need more cameras to cover all of the angles.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Monday, November 23, 2020

Sunday - COVID253

The weekend flew by.   I slept well again but sleeping in during the week is harder and that seems to be what helps the most.

I thought about adding fire to the title again because veg fires keep popping up, but I'll leave it be for now.  Walbridge is quiet.

I finished cleaning out and vacuuming the old Equinox and jump started it maybe for the last time. I'll make calls tomorrow to find out its new home. If I could smog it, I'd sell it. The car has more miles left but I can't help with that. I learned a lot from that car and from clearing it out.

I unloaded some of the evacuation packed items in the new Equinox.  I still need to pick up more from Jess.

I pulled the old fridge out to see if I could figure out what made it quit, and I couldn't figure it out.  I'll call and see what it will cost to get someone to look at it this week.

I was going to bake today but didn't get that done.  

I ordered groceries and picked them up, the regular stuff (sans my coffee, which they were out of) and Thanksgiving food. I'm planning a day "off" Wednesday so I can cook.  It may be just the afternoon, depending on how work goes the first two days of the week.

Jess used my fruit press tonight for her pomegranates and was so thrilled at how much easier it was to juice them for her jelly.  It makes me happy to help ease some of the work for her.  I know she enjoys it but juicing pomegranate by hand is no picnic, and using the press is actually fun.

The extra walking and carrying and work made for sore muscles so it's a couple of Tylenol before bed.  I was too tired to remember to grab the cameras when I started chores and they're taking a day off.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Sunday, November 22, 2020

Saturday - COVID252

I sleep dialed Mandi at 4:50 this morning. I grabbed my phone, went to the bathroom (since hurting my hip I am scared that I will not be able to get up without assistance), then sat on the bed and noticed an open call with her. I said hello and she asked if everything was okay and said she had been staying on the line just in case I was in trouble. Oops.  We both went back to sleep and I slept until 9am!

I noted this morning that I forgot to close the inside door to the chickens last night.  I remembered starting to, then noticing that Blue was still out.  She ignored my instructions to go in, so I set an alarm to check on them later.  When the alarm went off, I remembered opening the main door and figured I'd completed the task.  Oops.  Thankfully, coop activity has been nonexistent lately.  The fox isn't even running back and forth as often.

I ordered dog food from the feed store.  While I was placing the order, I decided to add a bale of pine shavings.  When Bex and I went to the car to pick everything up, I still had the stuff from Tammy's in the back.  We discussed taking some of it out, but I said I was just getting dog food and there was plenty of room.  No need to mess with it.  

We dropped off some small crocheted blankets for the animals at the shelter on our way into town.  We picked up Starbucks and headed for the feed store.  And when we were almost there, I remembered the pine shavings.  Thankfully, it was a smaller bale than I'm used to getting, and we were able to shift things around so it would fit easily.  Bex picked up a game she'd ordered using her birthday gift card, and we headed home.

I started chicken for dinner and decided to use it for tomorrow's dinner.  I'm pretty wiped out today.

Another quiet night with a snooze on the couch before bed.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Friday, November 20, 2020

Friday - COVID251

 I went to bed so late last night and got up too early, with 3-4 hours of sleep.  It was a foggy work day for sure.

I was able to talk with a friend in need for a little bit, though our conversation was incomplete due to lots going on for her.  I'm hoping to be able to continue our talk over the weekend if she has the time and stamina to do so.

I was snoozing while watching a show with Bex so decided to get some sleep.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Thursday - COVID250

I can barely remember the day.  I do know I woke up on time and worked and it was a busy work day.

Bex and I took some time midday to pick up things Tam had been storing for me in case we had to evacuate again, and picked up a couple other things on the way home.

I fell asleep on the couch watching TV and when I woke up I was wide awake, so ultimately went to bed in the wee hours of Friday morning.

I'm hoping for an easy day.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Wednesday, November 18, 2020

Wednesday - COVID249

I thought today was Tuesday all day until I needed to update the title here.

I slept a little later today but was still able to start work on time.  We're staying busy.

I'm making small progress on projects.  It feels too slow but I'm trying to be patient and let the steps be small so long as they're in the right direction.

My hip is feeling a little better but I still can't go up and down stairs normally.

We are staying safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Tuesday - COVID248

It was raining when I woke up.  I think I'm done with the rain.  Bella doesn't like it either and we get soaked waiting for her to stop insisting on going inside instead of doing her "duty" outside.  No amount of rain gear or umbrellas or hats really helps.

I took some time midday to bring Bella to the vet for her nail trim.  It gave me and Bex a chance to get out together.  We picked up Starbucks on the way home.  Bex went out to work for a little in the afternoon.  

Oliver sulked by the slider all day.  He would go outside for a couple minutes and then want back in.  He napped in his cat tower next to the door or laid inside the tube looking outside.

It was a quiet day and evening.  Just trying to get through the days and figure out a better way forward.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Tuesday, November 17, 2020

Monday - COVID247

Monday, Monday.  It was a workday and not much to write about.  

I did dig into some genealogy and found some interesting things.  It's amazing what the internet has done for this research when the last time I really worked on this I was writing letters with self-addressed stamped envelopes.

I was feeling a little low tonight but worked on crochet and tidying up.  My hip is getting better, though still sore.

I fell asleep on the couch so that's a sign it's time to get some real rest.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Sunday, November 15, 2020

Sunday - COVID246

I slept until the sun was up and was able to be comfortable last night.  I discovered that lying down really helped my hip pain the most.  I limped along slowly in the morning but did not need the walking stick to get around.  

The pain didn't decrease much throughout the day, so I took it easy.  I didn't feel confident enough carrying supplies or standing in the kitchen to make more warming salve, though I do hope to be able to do that - and more - soon.  

I haven't seen the fox for a few days on the Ring, though I haven't checked the trail cams for a while.  I did catch sight of a squirrel this morning on the Ring.

I took fire out of the title today because I haven't received notification of any vegetation fires and the air still smells like wet extinguished campfire.

I'm feeling low but soldiering forward and know that things can turn around.

But we are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Saturday, November 14, 2020

Saturday - COVID245 and FIRE86

I thought I could drop the fire count today because the air smells like a wet campfire, but I did receive notification of a vegetation fire today.  We shall see when that finally stops.

I worked on cleaning out the old Equinox again today.  It's a job I dislike but I'm almost done.  I just need to remove a couple things and vacuum it out.  Just because it's going to a junk hauler doesn't mean that I need to leave alfalfa debris and leaves in it.

Other than some light housekeeping and the Equinox work, I relaxed today because I needed the break.

But then as I was standing up from the toilet (of course the toilet because doesn't everything BAD happen there?), I heard two pops and felt extreme pain in my right hip joint.  I sat back down and caught my breath after the gasp and assessed the situation.  I've had pain in that hip for a long time and have been trying to realign my body to address what I believe is a ligament issue.  I haven't figured out yet if this was a good or bad thing because it still hurts and I'm limping.  Getting out of a chair is the worst.  I can't find my cane so am using a walking stick to help get around.  I took Tylenol and am hoping rest and warmth tonight helps it feel better by tomorrow.  If I'm up to it, I can make more warming salve to see if that helps.

Bex made creamy pesto tortellini tonight and it was amazing as always.  We had it with Caesar salad and wine.  She's getting better and better at cooking.

I'll hobble to bed and hope to feel better in the morning.  But we are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Friday - COVID244 and FIRE85

The fire portion may be over.  It's not a gully washer, but it was raining today.  If it continues well and I quit getting notifications of vegetation fires (which I received this morning), I may be able to take that out of my focus and unpack the cars and relieve Jess of the items she's been storing for me.

It was a busy work day and a quiet night, though the stress rain brings is a whole different thing.  Added darkness and challenging work outdoors is my least favorite part of fall and winter.  

I was able to set up the small greenhouse over the jalapeno plant.  My goal is to see if I can help it survive and thrive year-round, which I'm told is possible.  The person who told me this said her father keeps his in pots indoors during the winter, so I'm not sure if this will work but it's worth a try.  There are about five jalapenos ripening on it now.  The tomatoes are still heavy with fruit and I am patiently gathering the ripened ones when they are ready.  When it's clear the tomatoes are done, I'll collect the green fruit.

I'm looking forward to what I hope will be some good sleep and a productive day tomorrow.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Friday, November 13, 2020

Thursday - COVID243 and FIRE84

I woke up a little after the alarm but in plenty of time to begin work on time.  Not too early to let Oliver out right away.

I was able to focus in the morning and felt almost normal getting caught up on work emails from the previous day that had gone on without me as if it wasn't a court holiday.  My attention waned in the afternoon but it was okay.

It was a quiet day overall and the weeks fly by.  I'm both surprised and relieved that tomorrow is Friday and I get a couple more days off.  It could be the midweek break.  

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Wednesday, November 11, 2020

Wednesday - COVID242 and FIRE83

I turned off the alarm but still woke up early again.  I was determined to NOT work today, though I did check in on emails a little bit but not nearly even a half day.

I relaxed.  I sorted.  I organized.  I played the piano.  

It feels like the break is helping.  I have been observing that over the last week or so I have become very very unhappy and feel a simmering anger.  It felt good to work on my space today and that seemed to help.  

The fox keeps popping up near the chicken coop each night.  Most nights it just runs by but tonight I saw it on the Ring go behind the coop.  By the time I got eyeballs on it, it had run off in a hurry.  There's a gap in the camera coverage but I think it was because it triggered the new solar powered floodlight I set up temporarily on the back of Loretta.  I'll move it to the fence post when I can secure it there.  For now it seems to be working well.

Time to shut it down for the night.  We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Monday/Tuesday - COVID240/1 and FIRE81/2

I woke up a little early today and was enjoying the slow start to my day when I realized that I needed to meet my boss in Windsor to pick up documents.  In less than an hour.  And all of the chores had not been done.  So I got them done in record time (not nearly as fast as I have when I woke up super late to get Bex to car pool and school) and got to the meeting place on time.  While I was out, I called the feed store for a curbside order and picked up all of the feed.

Work was busy enough this afternoon.

Jess got an online order in today and Bex picked it up for me when she went out to work for a while.

I made tomato soup for dinner, which was perfect for a cold night.  I used what is likely the last of our tomato harvest.  There are still green tomatoes on the vines and tomatillos trying to ripen but I think they will be too late.  I'm leaving some jalapenos on the vine to ripen and get bigger.  I may try to transplant that to a pot for the greenhouse over the winter.  I've been told it's possible to grow them year round.

As I was beginning to write my update tonight, I saw the draft from last night still sitting here and realized it didn't get posted.    So on to Tuesday in the same post.

I woke up early again and got a head start.  It was a busy day and I am looking forward to taking tomorrow off.  I hope I'm successful in staying away from work for the day.

Leftover soup for dinner tonight.  I think there will be enough for lunch tomorrow and then I'll be done with it.  I love this tomato soup recipe - it is rich and a little spicy and buttery and scrumptious.

The fire danger continues to wane but I won't unpack until we've got some good rainfall.  It is freezing cold at night now.  

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Sunday, November 8, 2020

Sunday - COVID239 and FIRE80

I woke up way early today, perhaps because the wind was blowing.  On second thought, it's 'cause I had to pee and there was no way to stay in bed, and once I'm awake past sunrise, I'm up.

Oliver wanted outside immediately of course and had to wait.  The foxes trot through until the sun is well into the sky, so he stays in until the coast is clear.

The day was a blur of projects and Jess came by for a visit and to bring Bex a birthday gift.  We had a good visit.  I was also able to talk with my folks for a bit.  

Bex and I watched our show while I tore out my latest crochet project for I think the third time.  It's frustrating and I'm not sure how to navigate the size and color changes gracefully.

I'm wishing for another day off but will make the best of Monday.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Saturday, November 7, 2020

Saturday - COVID238 and FIRE79

I woke up early and started some work.  The rain at midnight last night caused me to consider removing the FIRE portion of the title but probably not yet - it wasn't long enough to really douse the Walbridge smolder.

Big news on the election front and we are breathing a little easier.

It's Becca's birthday and I'm thankful that she is sharing this present with us.  We're not sure what we'll do today - I was going to give her gift digitally but since I need to go out to get cake, I figured I'd pick it up.

Tammy hurt her toes the other day and was seeking crutches that would fit her.  I actually have some so I brought them down to her today, along with some soy-free eggs from my one chicken who's still laying.  I picked up some soy eggs from the farm - the dude running the place doesn't want to pay an extra $5 per month for the organic soy free feed.

The drive was nice and I wish I'd had more time to spend with Tamily, but I needed to pick up Becca's gift card and cake.

While I was heading out on Westside, I noticed a Biden Harris sign that I have not ever seen before on that road.  I texted Bex to ask her if maybe the owners saved it for today.

I got tired earlier tonight and hope for a good night's sleep, despite the wind picking up a bit.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Friday - COVID237 and FIRE78

Friday - thank goodness.  I slept in late again but it was an easy work day.  I am a little behind on transcription but can catch up tomorrow.

I harvested the basil from the garden and made pesto, which we used some of for dinner.  There's plenty left over to freeze and more basil to make more pesto.  I'm glad that I did that today because as I write this, it's 41 degrees outside.  I still have tomatoes ripening on the vine and will hate to see them go.

The fox has rushed back and forth a few times tonight but other than one pause to look at the coop, it hasn't stopped to investigate it further.  Bex did hear some commotion under the back of the house at one point.  

It started to pour rain for about 15 minutes at around midnight.  That was a good sound.

This cold and wet night, we are safe and warm and well.  I hope you are too.

Friday, November 6, 2020

Thursday - COVID236 and FIRE77

I woke on time but still wanted more sleep.  It was a pretty tiring work day with lots of focus.

I did harvest some basil today and Becca and I will make pesto tomorrow.  We'd planned to make it for dinner tonight but got a better offer.  We went to Jessi's to have a safe dinner with all my girls plus grands.  The kids roasted marshmallows and made s'mores after dinner.  AJ knows how to roast marshmallows - and burnt mine to perfection for my s'more.

The Ring went off while Bex and I were watching our show.  I pulled up the live feed and saw a fox snooping around on top of the chicken coop.  I felt a little offended.  They've been running past it and playing and hadn't explored the coop that I know of until tonight.  I showed the live stream to Bex and was going to go outside to tell it to go away when she reminded me that ... we can talk through the camera!

So I started telling it to go away and then Becca barked at it and we just about fell over laughing for a good long time.  The fox did look at the camera and it did leave.  What a handy thing.

I was going to upload the video but I'm having some issues getting it to the blog post, so I'll have to try again later.

I hope Friday is an easy work day and am looking forward to what I hope will be a productive and yet relaxing weekend.

We are safe and well and loved.  I hope you are too.

Wednesday, November 4, 2020

Wednesday - COVID235 and FIRE76

I woke up on time but was super tired but still needed to get up because AJ was coming for the day.

It was a school day for him, though a short one.  His Zoom class was about a half hour in the morning and he worked on homework for the rest of the morning.  I set a timer so he could work for a half hour and take 10 minute breaks until lunch.  At that point he was close to done but had a problem with his worksheet that we decided to review after lunch.

Bex made him the new favorite sandwich that she introduced him to recently - grilled peanut butter and banana sandwich, and about that time the pretzels were out of the oven and he had one of those.

We were able to sit down together at the table and work through the math.  Then he played video games with Bex for a while.  She went to Starbucks for drinks for us all and AJ discovered the caramel hot apple cider - his new favorite drink.

We had a good visit with Jess when she came to pick AJ up at the end of the day.  She has had him this week and had an appointment at home so AJ came here for the day.  It was a treat.  He wanted to know when he could come back as he was getting ready to leave.  He loves Bells and Oliver and was happy to lead Luna to the barn tonight. He was very proud of her for not pulling on the lead.

We had chicken sandwiches for dinner and Q brought home cheesecake when he came back from his trip to the city - work appointment.

We are coping and safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Tuesday - COVID234 and FIRE75

I woke up early again, in part because I heard animal noises that I wasn't sure were inside or outside and I couldn't get them to stop - so probably outside.  Sooooo annoying.  But I got a head start on the day.

Oliver likes to go out when I get up and he was not pleased that I wasn't opening the door at 0-dark-thirty.  He's not allowed with the dawn hunters, which started when he was chased into the house a few years ago by foxes taking the last of my hens one morning.  He meowed at the door, came over to put his paw on my leg, then tore at his cat tower, wandered off to sulk, then repeated.  About an hour after this routine started, I got a Ring movement notification and looked at the video to see a fox trotting by where I would have been letting him out.  Nope.

I made him wait another hour, then went out to do chores and get the rest of the animals out.

I've been babying sourdough starter back to life after a summer hibernation the last few weeks and it was finally ready yesterday.  So I used the discard this morning to make pretzels.  I started the dough in the bread machine and went back to work, smelling the yeasty warmth and looking forward to warm salty pretzels with mustard later in the day.

Work was okay and then as the day wound down, I started to listen to election results and then stopped.  There will be nothing known today, maybe not even for at least a week.  I told myself to wait and to be patient.  And then I felt sick to my stomach at the rift in this country.

I lost track of time with a new challenging project I'm figuring out.  Then needed to create a space for AJ to be able to do his school work tomorrow as he'll be with us in the morning.

We are safe and well and loved and seeking the best.  I hope you are too.

Monday, November 2, 2020

Monday - COVID233 and FIRE74

The advantage to falling back from daylight saving time means that I am getting up earlier, easier, and going to bed sooner.  

It was a work day - not a lot to write about.  Bex and I carefully reviewed and discussed ballots this afternoon, then completed each of ours and dropped them off at the Villa.  I love that place - so many memories there from so many different parts of my life.  It was easy to get in and out, people were cheerful even late in the day, and we felt accomplished and relieved that we didn't need to deal with it tomorrow when there may be more people.

We're hopeful.  It's Bex's second presidential election. 

The foxes showed up at the front of the house shortly after Bex went outside in the back this evening, so I popped out to let her know that they were roaming so she wouldn't be surprised.

We made orange chicken and rice for dinner tonight.  

While Bex and I watched a show, I finished a mandala in the same yarn and pattern as the center of the blanket squares I finished.  I'll wash and then put it on a hoop when I get my hoops back from Jessi's house where they are being stored with other projects and with my photos.  I wanted to use up the yarn.  There's still a bit more but I think I'll move on to the next project for now.

I'm still stressed but feeling better overall.  I remembered that I had eleuthero and started using it a few days ago.  It's amazing how well it really works and I need to remember it, especially during the darker fall and winter months.  Hops tea before bed has been helping with sleep.

I did listen to a  (free) webinar today that I'd forgotten I signed up for a couple weeks ago - the page was still open in my browser and when I clicked on it, the webinar just started.  There was no way to pause it, so I listened in headphones while I worked and took notes from time to time.  It was on antiviral herbs and I have a handout and some notes that will be helpful.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Sunday, November 1, 2020

Sunday - COVID232 and FIRE73

This is the time for nightmares it seems.  Last night's was me and Bex sitting on the couch watching election results.  There was a celebrity visiting - I cannot for the life of me remember who she was - and she was in another part of the house.  The screen on the TV went black and white with a globe in the middle and it said WORLD QUAKE.  Becca and I grabbed each other's arms and looked at each other as the lights flickered.  We didn't feel anything but were worried.  Then the WORLD QUAKE warning flashed on the TV again and the power went out.  We still didn't feel any shaking but had no idea what was going on.  I remember while we were getting battery packs lined up and ready and starting to look at our phones to find out what happened that the celebrity woman asked if she could stay while the whole world situation was sorted out, and we agreed.

I slept in a little.  When I checked the ring I saw that two foxes trotted through at about midnight, so the flash I caught on the other video was probably not a raccoon or prey, but the other fox while they were chasing through.


I worked this afternoon and made some salsa.  Bex went down to pick up some groceries from Jess, as well as a package of yarn that arrived during the evacuation ups and downs that Jess has been holding in her garage for me.  Time for a new project.

I got into an emotional funk and am not sure why.  It was a combo of stress and anxiety and anger at everything.  I'm trying to be kind to myself and know I'll find my way.

The time change messes everything up but I'm hopeful that finally they'll find a way to stop this ridiculousness and just leave the time be.  

I got notifications a few times around 9:30 on the Ring and watched one of the foxes running around again.

I'm going to bed earlier than usual and hope to rest easy tonight and feel better tomorrow.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Saturday, October 31, 2020

Saturday - COVID231 and FIRE72

I thought I'd sleep in a bit longer, but the earlier bedtime last night meant up at 8am.  It will be interesting to see what happens in the morning with daylight saving time ending and all.

I did some work this morning, and am still a little behind but not too much.

Then I went to the library to drop off a couple things and pick up a couple books.  After that, a trip to Home Depot to curbside pick up my motion sensing solar outdoor light order.  Now to find a couple spots to put them so they illuminate the chicken coop.

It was exciting to hearing the Ring notification a couple of times tonight.  We saw a fox run from the barn area toward the front of the house, and then back again a few minutes later.  The camera caught a split second flash of another animal in front of the fox on the second run-through, but it's impossible to see what it is.  It's about the size of a raccoon but I'm not sure a raccoon could outrun a fox.

Then again, I've never seen a raccoon run.  Maybe they can run fast when motivated.

I finished the blanket I started on when I was with Tammy during evacuations.  I'll have to take a better photo in the daylight.  I loved the center mandala that I wasn't content with making one and mounting it in a hoop.  So I decided to use a section of another pattern to make it into squares and create the blanket.  It weighs about 5 pounds!


It should be pretty cozy on my bed - I'll give it a try and see.  It was plenty warm while I was sewing the panels together the last couple of days.

I'm looking forward to getting some things done around the house tomorrow.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Friday, October 30, 2020

Friday - COVID230 and FIRE71

I slept a little late again but not too bad.

It was a work day, somewhat busy but not crazy.

I was able to talk to Mom and Dad this afternoon, but not for as long as we wanted because there were issues with the cell phones.  I meant to call them back later but when I remembered, it was way late. :(  I'll try again tomorrow.  It was good to talk with them.

The trail cams are behaving badly and not recording overnight.  ChickenCoopCam was on today but kept turning itself off.  I reset it again for tonight (thinking maybe it overheated?) and if it doesn't record, I'll dig into customer service to see what's up.

The Ring went off tonight and showed me a fox walking through the coop area again.  Luckily it's just breezing right past the coop and not investigating.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Thursday - COVID229 and FIRE70

Sleeping in was not as late this morning and I woke up at an okay time to start work.

I forgot to mention that the morning after the bobcat breach, Blue still laid an egg.  Apparently she trusts me enough not to stop production when predators are near.  Or her breeding is showing - high production.

I dreamt that Oliver brought a bobcat cub home.  They both trotted up to the slider.  I only let Oliver inside, though I wanted to bring the bobcat in too.  It was really cute and friendly.

The bobcat seems to have stayed away from the chicken coop.  The trail cameras quit recording yesterday afternoon, so there may be a timer that I need to adjust.  So if the cat did show up last night, I have no way of knowing.  The Ring camera seems to be hit or miss.  It did notify me of movement tonight.  Adrenaline spiked as I pulled up the live image on my phone - to see nothing - while I walked to look out the door - to see nothing.  The recorded video showed a 'possum running through.

I made tortellini soup for dinner which was good.  It's always a winter favorite for me.

I'm looking forward to the weekend.  

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Thursday, October 29, 2020

Wednesday - COVID228 and FIRE69

I'm going to bed late and sleeping late again but it wasn't as late this morning.

After working for a while, I heard Oliver meowing at Becca's bedroom door.  She later came out to let me know that Ollie had left a dead bird (and feathers) in her bathroom.  I helped her clear it out.  

When reviewing video from last night and this morning, I discovered the bobcat came back again just two hours after I had chased it away.  


Tammy came up this afternoon and we reinforced the chicken coop.  The cameras have been going all day and I set an alarm on the Ring and repositioned it so that if anything shows up, it will hopefully be scared off.  So far there's been no activity on the Ring, though it did miss the return of the bobcat yesterday evening.  It's hard to get it set up in a place where it has a close view without being in the elements.

I made curry for dinner tonight and it's always good, filling, comforting, and with this batch - sinus clearing without being painfully hot.

I've had a hard time settling in to sleep tonight.  I forgot about making tea until I was finally tired enough to go to bed, but I need to remember it earlier so I can get better rest.

We are safe and well and so are the critters.  I hope you are too.

Wednesday, October 28, 2020

Tuesday - COVID227 and FIRE68

I skipped a couple of days because we lost power Sunday until Monday evening and the blog flew out of my head last night.  

It's hard to remember the last couple of days other than we did some errands and got food to go on the nights we had no power.  Cory and Jess brought up the trailer and it looks GREAT.  I need to paint it and do lots of practice towing.  It's good to have it here in case we need it.

Facebook knows first that there's been a lot of animal activity on the farm the last few days, including a young fox and a bobcat checking out the chicken coop in the early morning hours of yesterday and today. 



Just as the sun was beginning to think about setting, I heard a loud noise I didn't recognize.  By the time I got to the sliding glass door on the side of the house with the chickens, Oliver the cat was staring at the door and the chickens were making a huge ruckus.  I shook the door loudly, opened it and closed it loudly, and saw a bobcat actually making its exit from the chicken coop.  I started yelling at it as I walked (slowly) down the steps toward the coop until it went into the blackberry bushes.  I secured the door with the bent latch and called Bex with shaking hands to talk it through.

The chickens are okay and I got there just in time because the bobcat was halfway through the coop on its way to a tasty meal.  The top of the chicken run was dented out near the door where it likely jumped up when I made my appearance before it found the doorway out.  I've wired everything closed and put a crate and bricks and a 5 gallon bottle of water on the entrance the bobcat used this evening.  We'll be putting the animals in even earlier and will be securing the coop even more tomorrow.  I've ordered some solar motion activated lights to mount on the coop and some alarms for the doors and have plans to make the edges spikey and maybe even create another perimeter around the coop and run.

We're all safe and well tonight.  I hope you are too.

Sunday, October 25, 2020

Saturday - COVID224 and FIRE65

Dang, I overslept today.  I kept waking up a little then snuggling back into the warmth.  Oliver didn't bug me and Bella didn't bark.  So I was shocked to see that it was 12:15 pm when I finally rolled out of bed.  I started automatically to feed Bella when Bex popped in and said that she had already fed her, and the cat, and done chores.  Whew!!  She also had coffee ready to go and started heating the water as soon as she saw I was up.  What a great kid.

I spent a lot of time reviewing footage from four cameras this morning and found some gems.  I've got the bobcat and fox videos done and will work on squirrel and 'possum later.  There was a lot of activity this week.


The fox video will need to be uploaded to YouTube because it's too big to share here.

I spent the rest of the shortened day with Bex and then she visited with a friend while I crocheted for a bit.  I went to bed still late but earlier than I have been for a while.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Saturday, October 24, 2020

Friday - COVID223 and FIRE64

I slept much later today but it worked out.  And I worked most of the day.

I've been waking up the sourdough starter from its hibernation in the fridge since the weather turned warmer.  It's starting to wake up a little but it's taking longer than I'd thought.  Bex and I are looking forward to pretzels again.  Someday.

Leftover soup is still going strong for lunch and sometimes dinner and is even better warmed up.  I think I have one more bowl left so I'll need to make another big dish this weekend.  I am thinking curry sounds good again.  If I had a few more tomatoes I could make soup but that takes a substantial amount.  I have some but not enough for that.  So I think salsa is on the menu too.

We are still binge watching a show that is too good to stop but we do stop when one of us starts dozing.

I'm looking forward to the weekend.  Though I got notice that the power may be shut off Sunday due to high winds and dry weather.  This notice came on the anniversary of the Kincade fire so the timing sucked.  Evacuation is one thing.  Doing it with no power is another.

We are safe and well with no fires nearby as I finally go to bed.  I hope you are too.

Friday, October 23, 2020

Thursday - COVID222 and FIRE63

I'm still sleeping in.  The good news is that the headache seems to be gone.

When reviewing the Ring camera this morning I noticed Oliver flying across the yard.  Typically I watch each snip in sequence with him walking left to right, then right to left the next time, stopping to look out over the yard.  We slowed it down and looked as closely as we could and Bex and I think he was trying to get a chipmunk.  Those suckers are fast and Oliver didn't sneak up closer and ran from too far away to catch it.


It was a work Thursday and I'm looking forward to the weekend.

I didn't even leave the property to check the mail today - the daily email I get from the post office didn't show anything anyway.

We are worried about the weekend fire danger but trying not to focus too much on it.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Thursday, October 22, 2020

Wednesday - COVID221 and FIRE62

I slept late again and feel like all I want to do is sleep once I hit the bed.  The sun is obnoxious in making sure I get up.

Another busy work day and a bit intense.  It feels like Friday.

When I checked the Ring camera this morning I discovered we'd had a fox visitor at about 2:30 am.  Nothing else on the other cameras and I am trying to be sure to get them out every night now.  


Bex made dinner and we had a good episode of watching Bella play and get stuck under her bed walking around and bumping into things like a blind turtle.  We watched our show until I got tired.

I'm trying to stay positive but today was a test of that effort.  

But we are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Wednesday, October 21, 2020

Tuesday - COVID220 and FIRE61

Yes, the FIRE will stay there until it's out.  We still have smoke from flare-ups from time to time.  I am still packed and ready in case one of those flare-ups throws a spark outside of the containment area.  

I slept late again but that's okay.  I still got my work done and made my morning phone appointment on time.

Bex and I headed to Santa Rosa for feed store and Michael's curbside pickup.  I love our drives and conversations and enjoying music together.  The laughs too.  

Bex made dinner and we watched a show.  I enjoy the time with her while I can.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Tuesday, October 20, 2020

Monday - COVID219 and FIRE60

 I slept late again but got some good sleep in.  

Nothing much today but a work day.  I cleaned out the fridge, which always feels good.

Leftover soup today for lunch and dinner because it's that good.

Bex visited with a friend and she fell asleep while we watched our show.  Being outside and walking in fresh air will do that to you.

No critters to speak of on the camera review today.  The squirrel showed up again this morning, flitting about in the driveway.  I caught him in the back yard one time when I went outside.

The Ring camera notifies me each time there's motion in its vicinity.  I've learned that most of the time it's Oliver.  He walks back and forth in the back yard.  The camera is an ongoing scene of him seemingly pacing - one time from the left, the next from the right.  It came in handy this evening when I heard the notification and he hadn't come in for the night yet.  It was easy to catch him 'cause I knew where he was.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Sunday, October 18, 2020

Sunday - COVID218 and FIRE59

I didn't sleep as long as I wanted but woke up feeling okay.

I worked a bit this morning and started the crock pot with spicy chicken taco soup.  

I met up with Mom and Dad at Jessi's house and we had a good visit with Mom safely in the van.  We exchanged some things we've been holding for a bit and it was good to see each other.  It's really hard not to hug but the safest thing for now.  I'm really grateful to be able to see and talk with them and happy that they can get out for safe drives.

The soup turned out really good.  It'll provide leftovers to eat for a while.

I felt tired earlier tonight and was nodding off on the couch.  Wishing for another day or two off the regular job but maybe I can arrange that this week, or at least a couple half days.  I felt better when I had done some work in the kitchen. 

I smelled smoke tonight but don't see anything on all of the apps and pages and cameras.  It could be a Walbridge flareup in the burn zone that they are keeping an eye on.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Saturday - COVID217 and FIRE58

I slept 8 hours and could have slept more if the sun wasn't blaring into the room with its accompanying intense heat through an uncovered (still) window.

I was just starting some work when I decided to accompany Bex to have her new tires put on her car.  There would be some wait time and neither one of us had our Costco membership cards yet.  Thankfully it wasn't too busy and we were able to dodge around safely to get the tires started and cards in wallets and grabbed a couple of things from the store while we were there.

We sat in my car and observed her car being worked on, laughing when the poor guys took each tire outside to shake and bounce and kick them to get the dust off.  It's pretty bad.  By the fourth tire I was wondering why they didn't use the air nozzles on them, but maybe that wouldn't have been big or strong enough.  As it was, we were giggling the whole time and the theme song for the Harlem Globetrotters was running through my head.  Belly laughs are good.

We chilled this afternoon and Bex cooked dinner.

We are safe and well and enjoying the weekend.  I hope you are too.

Friday, October 16, 2020

Friday - COVID216 and FIRE57

Another late morning but not too bad.  I've had a lingering headache most of the day.  Maybe the heat and dehydration.  I tried to drink more water today.

A squirrel showed up on the trail cam from this morning, very industrious in trying to bury what I think was an acorn in its mouth.

I'm glad this work week is behind me and hope for a relaxing and productive weekend.  At this point I feel like I could sleep for days.  

We are safe and well and looking forward to the weekend.  I hope you are too.

Thursday - COVID215 and FIRE56

Getting out of bed wasn't easy again but I made it.

As for work, if it's Thursday of this week, it must be another ex parte (emergency).  During a week that I'm so tired of working, these are both interesting and (so far) helpful for our clients, but I still need a break.  

I caught a fox on camera from last night and am glad that I'm resetting the cameras again.  Most of the time there's nothing but catching those moments makes it worthwhile.

Bex got the old bed and headboard out of her room and set up the new stand.  It made a huge difference and there's a lot more space now.  

I'm hoping for an easier day tomorrow and looking forward to the weekend.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Thursday, October 15, 2020

Wednesday - COVID212 and FIRE55

The bedroom got hot early today as the sun blasted in through curtainless windows that I'll take care of eventually.  I woke late again but since work is generally flexible so all was well.

Another busy day and too many emergencies and computer issues but it worked out.

At 1:30 I'm still not tired but will try to sleep anyway.  The wind kicked up a little bit and I smelled smoke faintly but nothing crazy is happening currently.  I'm hoping it will stay quiet and hoping for a good rain so I can unpack the car and relax. Even committing to taking a shower becomes an internal argument about timing because who wants to get caught evacuating while in the midst of that?  And there's no good time - no way to know when fire will start or where.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Tuesday, October 13, 2020

Tuesday - COVID211 and FIRE54

Sleep is still elusive but I know this won't last forever.

Work was busy today until it wasn't because power was out at the office building.  I could still get some things done, just nothing that required access to our files.

Mom and Dad sent toe socks that I can use with my new shoes.  They are super cute and colorful, and Becca and I will share them.  We wore them this morning until it got too hot this afternoon.

The wind picked up tonight, so I did a little more consolidation, stopped myself, and then tried to stop fretting about the precious minutes I'll waste on the other things I will need to put in a bag just in case.  It's hard not to let this rule my life but frankly I'm tired of packing and living out of my car, though I still do it.  The remaining stuff is all in one place ready to drop into a bag and go.

At least I'm not unplugging the computer overnight.

I felt sleepy early tonight and stopped our TV watching earlier than usual.  Maybe I can get some good sleep tonight.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Monday - COVID210 and FIRE54

 It was a Monday work day.  I slept okay and wished I could sleep longer.  It seems I can't get tired until really late these days.  I do need to remember that I have tea that helps - and should start sipping that with dinner.  Though I do enjoy my late nights with Bex.

The lion expert called me today in response to my email last night about the juvenile lion we saw.  We had a great conversation and he had some good tips and information for my neighbor's goat enclosure, which I shared with her this afternoon.  What I'm doing with my animals is good - he had no additional suggestions. 

We are sticking close to the house and getting the animals inside before dark.  I saw the video making its rounds today about the man who came across a lioness and her cubs while hiking alone and his harrowing backtrack away from her.  I wasn't going to share it with Bex because I knew it would scare her, but she showed me a short clip that came across her phone while she was sitting in the hammock outside.  She promptly came inside.  

We took her car in and emptied the rest of my savings until Bex can pay me back.  Ugh.  Cars.  It was expensive but necessary and worth the investment because it's still a good car.  I think part of the problem is the damn dust.  How do we knock that out of and off of our cars routinely so it doesn't build up?

It was a good day overall and I'm trying to find my way back to feeling more positive and calmer.  The upcoming fire weather won't help that much but I'm trying.  It's like living on the edge of your seat.  You just can't mentally kick back and put your feet up.  Maybe that's part of the sleep problem.  I feel like I want/need to stay awake and alert all of the time.

But we are safe and well and loved and supported by good people.  I hope you are too.

Monday, October 12, 2020

Sunday - COVID209 and FIRE53

I wanted to sleep later but the sun wouldn't let me, glaring into my face with no escape since there are still no curtains on the window.

I was tired and just generally out of it today.  I did some work and Bex and I ran to town to pick up feed and groceries.  Her car started okay but we're still too unsure of it to have her run errands on her own.  We'll get it to the shop for diagnostic tomorrow.  FIXD says it's fine and we know it's not.  The exhaust is pretty potent.

On our way back from picking up groceries, we caught a glimpse of what appeared to be a juvenile mountain lion dart into the blackberry bushes from in front of the car as we went up the driveway.  I stopped the car and we stared at the emptiness and at each other, stunned.

I'm hoping to feel better tomorrow.  Resting this weekend hasn't helped much.  Maybe I'll be able to get better sleep tonight.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Saturday, October 10, 2020

Saturday - COVID208 and FIRE52

I woke up early today and couldn't get back to sleep.  Thus, I took a short nap at some point.

Bex and I ran a couple of errands but otherwise stayed at home and rested up a bit.

Her car started fine and the FIXD app said nothing was wrong.  But we'll take it to the shop next week to get it checked out just in case.

I'm hoping for a more productive day tomorrow but have a stressed-out feeling in the pit of my stomach and am just plain tired.  The good news is that it sprinkled a little today.  That helps but doesn't get rid of fire danger.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

TGIFriday - COVID207 and FIRE51

It got cold last night so I turned on the heater for the first time - really low.  It was cozy for a while but I turned it off quickly when I got up.  It doesn't take much to warm up my room.

Work today was productive.  I took a break in the middle to go to the library and to pick up a curtain rod for my bedroom window.  The curtains arrive later.  

Bex is having car trouble.  We'll take a look at it tomorrow and hope it isn't too bad.  Neither one of us can afford this right now and she was just going to start Dashing again.  Can't do that without a car.

We had a peaceful evening and I'm hoping for a productive and relaxing weekend.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Thursday, October 8, 2020

Thursday - COVID206 and FIRE50

I woke up a little late again today.  It was overcast and cool and everything felt like it moved slowly this morning, especially my internet connection and brain.

Nothing on three out of the four cameras this morning.  When I pressed down on the memory card to remove the fourth, my finger slipped and the spring-loaded card careened into the general vicinity of the kitchen sink.  I searched everywhere and couldn't find it.  Finally when I mentioned it to Bex tonight, she was able to locate it - hidden behind the tall column of the faucet.  I dried it off and will check it tomorrow.

Work is keeping me busy and I'm wishing for a day off, needing more than the two weekend days that seem to get covered in other things I need to do.  I may need to arrange to shut off the remote connection to work one day next week.

Overall it was a quiet yet busy work day.  There was another fire at Lytton Springs that they contained to a 1/4 acre.  That area has been too busy lately.

But we are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Wednesday - COVID205 and FIRE49

The crick in my neck is going away but it's still pretty stiff.  No nightmares last night, just tossy-turny and I woke up a little late.  Not too bad for work, though I am still behind.

No new flare-ups and no sirens today.  

But what I DID see this morning got my heart racing a little.  Walking to get the goats out of the barn, I noticed new tracks in soft dirt between the chicken coop and barn.  Remember Bex and I heard something outside last night that we couldn't see?


I sent the photos to our local expert on mountain lions to get his opinion but yes, I do believe that's what those tracks are from and what likely was making the subtle noises we heard last night.  Of course there was no trail cam pointed in that direction last night.  So tonight, I unpacked all of them from the car and the place is bristling with cameras.  Of course, there will probably be nothing on any of them again.  But maybe there will.

And as much as I love using them, I keep thinking through how I will add those to the things I need to collect and repack if we need to go again.  

We heard a single coyote howling tonight with no response.  It made Bex cry.  We wondered if it was the one that showed up here this week and if he's lost contact with his pack because of the fire.  It could be he's tonight's soloist and they were listening but still.  I hope he finds his pack if that's what he is looking for.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Tuesday, October 6, 2020

Tuesday - COVID204 and FIRE48

I've had a crick in my neck the past three mornings.  I had nightmares again last night.  This time it was a giant rattlesnake in the driveway between me and the house, and I had Bella on leash.  When I say giant, I mean python sized.

No creatures on the trail cam today but Bex and I thought we heard something outside tonight.  We couldn't see it but maybe it will be captured on video if it went to the front of the house.  I don't want to unpack much so only have the one camera set up for now.

It was a busy work day so not too much to report.

The fires are easing up, though I did wake up this morning to hearing fire engine sirens from two directions.  One was a house fire outside Healdsburg and the other an accident in the opposite direction.  

All in all, we are safe and well.  I hope you are too.

Monday - COVID203 and FIRE47

I tossed and turned again last night and did not sleep past the sun hitting my window because the roll-up shade decided it had had enough and separated itself from the roll.  I am now awaiting new curtains because the shade is a PITB and I won't replace it.

It was another work day, though I did look through the video captured by the trail cam this morning and discovered a coyote strolling along the driveway.  That was a first and rather exciting.

The work day kept me busy.  Then I went down to pick up some groceries from Jess in the evening.  She and Cory have been working on the trailer now that it's at their place and it is coming right along!

Bex cooked dinner and I enjoyed spending some time with her before I started yawning, signaling bedtime.

The fires have been quieter today, or at least I'm not getting as many notifications.

We are safe and well.  I hope you are too.